Last week for the first time in my life I feel like I'm going to die. Literally that strong feeling of death. I'm scared. I cried for hours, can't sleep till dawn, and read Quran to calm me down. I count every seconds, pray to God I want longer time to live, and thinking I haven't raised cute kids yet!
Thanks God I'm still breathing. That moment forced me to remember how lucky I am and how I haven't shown people enough how grateful I am to have them. And then I remember those dreams I haven't tried to pursue. And that sad and hurt feeling if I'm really going to die tomorrow, I will be remembered just as Dina, that no one Dina. I haven't published any sensational novel yet. I haven't made that beautiful dresses yet, I haven't created any quirky designs yet.
I feel silly for times I think I still have tomorrow to start something or maybe to start all over again. What if I have no tomorrow left? Those dreams I never have guts to start and those people I often hurt though I love them so much. Mau diapain itu semua.
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